Life After Love.

I've been meaning to address this for awhile. Anyway here goes nothing.

So I've broken up with my ex-boyfriend since a couple of months back. Why? As I've answered this to many different people. I realised there's a whole list of reasons why. But the main reason is simply because I can't see a future of us being together. I do or did love him. But to a certain extent. I've never allowed myself to fall 101% into someone. Neither have I fully trusted anyone. And so this is why I call it off. I need someone who I can trust whole-heartedly.

Post break-up life, definitely very liberating. In between there's some serious drama. But nothing I can't deal with. Guys these days really thinks girls are damn cheap huh. Now let me tell you, you can choose to do whatever you want. That is if you can handle the consequences. If you can, go ahead. Nonetheless, pretty damn disappointed with men these days.

Back to being single. I love it so much. The freedom. The control I have of myself means so much to me. I felt relief the moment I'm no longer tied down. It feels like I can do WHATEVER I want to. Feels pretty damn good. As much as I love hugs and kisses and everything having a boyfriend entitles me to have, right now I just have to figure out myself. What I want from my other half.

I can support myself. Fully independent. But I need someone who can make me feel safe and secure among other things. So yes, meanwhile I'm gonna keep traveling. Figuring out who exactly I am. I don't care if I take 1 year, 10 years or 20 years. Who cares. I don't.